Betrayal at the Highest Level – Dialogue

Crystal Infection - by Marcin Ignac
Crystal Infection – by Marcin Ignac

On May 15th after waking from the dream of the betrayer, I copied my journal to my sister Jaya and we began an e-mail dialogue about the unmasked culprit(s) in our midst:

From Hallow:

[Here is a review of the dream I typed and sent to her: http://chaoskrakens.com/stories/betrayal-highest-level-dream]

Do you know who the betrayer is? <3 <3 <3

From Jaya:

Betrayal is definitely the word I’d use to describe what I felt. Hate and betrayal, as though the one thing I thought I could count on suddenly believed I was the “them” in “us vs them” and it played out both energetically and physically…(she described private details of what she experienced personally on her end and what an emotional toll it took on her)

When night came I felt things start to ease and I set my intention to dream about the underlying cause. I dreamed (last night) that you and I were out and about, in a crowded mall, intent on our work. We had charts, movies, plans, etc. and we were putting all the final pieces in place. (One of the first seeds) was constantly trying to undermine us, interrupt our progress, and cause a general attention seeking tantrum. At first we were watching a movie to determine where in the plot we needed to intervene and s/he was behind us, chatting and making interruptions. We were ignoring that and s/he put their head between us from behind, in a “hey, pay attention to me” way that was annoying. You said you didn’t like that one bit, so I turned and said not to do that again. Typical first seed, trying to get attention.

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The Reconciliation XVIII – Sermon & Benediction

Recently on 5/22/16 I performed a full day of ceremony.  I went in virtually oblivious to what would occur and it turned out to be the renunciation and reconciliation, including judgment day.  I’ve written 100 pages and it’s still unfolding, but I’ve decided to begin sharing this very recent story in its raw and unrefined form.  All of the segments will be here in our current blog format (starting at the back and working to the front).

http://chaoskrakens.com/stories/category/ceremonies/the-reconciliation

Story of connecting myth to past life memories and receiving clues about the deeper patterns of betrayal as creation lessons, as part of the reconciliation
Sconfitta (defeat) – Frontispiece to ‘The Song of Los’ by William Blake

Today’s ceremony was six hours in total.  I think next came the sermon or lesson.  Two men in white had been directing the rituals for the first half of the celebration.  Perhaps midway through that four hours, the leader of the temple appeared.  He led them in several songs and then got down to business, delivering an address.  My attention was drawn to him strongly when he began to teach, though I wasn’t seeing him.  I was tapping into a past life, in which he’d also been present.  I kept seeing the scenes before he described them.  Then I’d pause, wait for his story to catch up to where I was, feel my Beloved wink at me, and then continue my precognition. Continue reading “The Reconciliation XVIII – Sermon & Benediction”

Post-Crossing III – Continuity & Reflection

This is a follow-up to The Crossing ceremony, work my sister and I performed during the first twenty-one days of February 2016.  It brought up a lot of emotion for me.  All of the stories can be found here:

http://chaoskrakens.com/stories/category/ceremonies/the-crossing

Story of The Crossing ceremony - review of the continuity, coordinated by our chaos family, which made this secret work possible
Blossom Trees Reflections by Graham Gercken

I’ve always tried to be stoic, to keep my own feelings to myself and not to emote.  Now I can’t seem to contain it anymore.  I’ve spent every lifetime here spiritually, emotionally and often physically bleeding out for everyone.  Lately I’ve been going around dramatizing that for all of the spirits.  When they come to demand things from me every day or night, I no longer review our trans-universe history, see their inner human/spirit children, take on their emotions and open my heart to give them access to anything they need.  Now I cut off my own head and limbs, gasp a final play-acting breath, gush blood and guts all over them, then give them my disgusted face.  I tell them to grow up, and order them to clean it up themselves. Continue reading “Post-Crossing III – Continuity & Reflection”

Post-Crossing II – Rant

This is a follow-up to The Crossing ceremony, work my sister and I performed during the first twenty-one days of February 2016.  It brought up a lot of emotion for me.  All of the stories can be found here:

http://chaoskrakens.com/stories/category/ceremonies/the-crossing

Red Sky Warning III by Kimberly Conrad
Red Sky Warning III by Kimberly Conrad

The past year has been the hardest of all.  Our website was corrupted.  Someone hacked each of our 24-character, randomly generated and supposedly full strength passwords, so that they had full access to everything.  They didn’t mess around with files.  Oh no! They tried to destroy everything from the deepest root level.  It’s only thanks to Jaya and her hubby’s super-computing skills that they were able to trouble shoot and repair it, but I didn’t care.  I got so disgusted with humanity that I refused to post anything at all (until now). I really wasn’t sure if I ever would again.  I kept rhetorically demanding of everyone everywhere, “Why should I?!”  Then I’d declare, “Wake up and find your own damn answers!”  I don’t know why I’m posting now. Continue reading “Post-Crossing II – Rant”

Post-Crossing I – Discontinuity & Reflection

This is a follow-up to The Crossing ceremony, work my sister and I performed during the first twenty-one days of February 2016.  It brought up a lot of emotion for me.  All of the stories can be found here:

http://chaoskrakens.com/stories/category/ceremonies/the-crossing

Story of The Crossing ceremony - review of the discontinuity which actually made this coordinated and secret work possible
Guardianship 1 by Duncan Hopkins

Since the crossing, I’ve been thinking a lot about the continuity and discontinuity involved in Jaya and my roles.  Midnight on January 31st Jaya began her 21 days of ‘Releasing’ and ‘Warding Allocation and Guardianship’ ceremony.  I had no idea what she was doing.  I believe that she didn’t tell me about it because she didn’t want to worry or upset me more than usual.  That’s a reflection of where we’re at now.  I know we each wish to spare the other any unnecessary trauma.  I’ve urged her many times to disconnect from my thoughts and emotions, to spare her all that I’m going through. Continue reading “Post-Crossing I – Discontinuity & Reflection”